The pathway towards relentless hatred… and selfless compassion, ALWAYS coincide! Somewhere.. Someway… but always!
You see, detestation towards someone often provokes a ego-driven thought process against the enemy; where we continuously conspire of ways to hurt them. But you see, think of a person too much, for too long, and he/she starts to grow on you, always. If you are lucky, you respect your enemy. Like Julius Caesar and Pompey Magnus; they fought two bloody wars against each other.. but always shared gargantuan amplitude of respect. And THIS, my friends, is that moment where animosity has the potential of turning into adulation. Its rare but the rarity of it, doesn’t disprove the theory. I discovered the truth of my fondness for Nazia at a similar cross-way…
Becoming an enemy is mostly the point where friendships fail. But when you are acquainted as bitter enemies, logic says there is only one way it can go.. and i am glad it did go the way it did in the end… and Nazia has everything to do with it.. for our reconciliation… for my moral rebirth!
It all began when Nazia misunderstood me for someone she wanted to avoid for some reason. She started to ignore me and me being the weaker man with a shallow sense of self-importance, took it upon my ego… K ‘ho kaisay gaya k she is putting me through this treatment?!!“… What happened afterwards is history… In a nutshell, for weeks and months, I probably made Nazia’s life a living hell. I trolled her, bullied and badgered her… i tricked people into ridiculing her.. and when she kept quiet in wake of this reckless verbal harassment, I just descended upon her even harder… cuz the ‘ego’ didn’t let me accept the silence even! And worse part is, she was fighting with health issues in RL during all that.
One fine day.. I lured Diamond into opping me on #Passion to set a topic.. and instead kick/banned Nazia with derogatory comments. She got badly offended and confronted Diamond for this mistreatment and told her that she will never join her channel again until I am there. Diamond was devastated by this dilemma.. both her friends in contention, asking her to choose a side! Diamond helplessly asked me to behave but how could I ever stop? It was an insult to stop, right?!
Then a few days later, I saw Nazia back in the channel… again, silently enduring my malcontent. I Pvt-msged her to mock her on rejoining and asked her why did she join whereas she boasted that she never will, unless I leave. She replied:
“Diamond baybus thi apkay samnay, and I accept being harassed by you to save my friendship with her.”
This soul-stirring statement still resonates within my ear-drums.. the pain.. the sense of sacrifice.. even in a thing as superficial as this, sent shock-waves right through my anatomy… and after a very long time, I truly realized how fucked-up I have become… this isn’t what I wanted to be… this isn’t how I was brought up! That ONE gesture of forswear opened my eyes to how altruistic Nazia is.. and what an absolute fiend I was!
That day, I decided that come what may, Nazia will NOT get hurt because of me.. or in front of me again… ever! I apologized to her which she, being the bigger person as always, accepted it without an ado.. and lifted the crippling burden on my conscience.
Nazia, I know now we are all cool and dandy.. But still I would like to use this forum to publicly apologize, once again, for all the atrocities I’ve done. You are one of the bravest person I’ve seen, to have handled the hardships that come your way, not just on IRC but in real life as well… you’re a fighter… and a warrior! I’ll always be the biggest fan of your valiance! There will always be people who will judge you.. and hurt you…and despise you… but we all know what saints they are themselves, lol… Nevertheless, your friends will always know the integrity that lies beneath your charming veneer! :]
|Tell me something about yourself. Ideally, something which is not common knowledge.|
|I like to spend more time with my pets than in any other gathering. |
I liked someone when i was 16, (he was) only a year older than me. it was my 1st love but I knew we cannot be one for some reason. He was handicapped but a very wise guy.
|What inspired your nick?|
|My (real) name is Nazia.|
Now I feel like an idiot for asking this stupid question O_o
|What made you joined IRC? And why do you use it?|
|This one is interesting lol … so i was in Islamia Unvi Bawalpur.. or hamare girls hostel me nea nea cafe khola tha … es sa pehle me ne pc dekha bhe nai tha like chalaya nai tha ..basss my 1st interaction with pc was IRC|
Talk about starting off on a wrong foot :S
|If you had to change your nick, what would your new name be, and why would you choose that nick?|
|Dil… its already regsitered by me…i like it|
|Do you prefer being anonymous on IRC? If Yes, Why?|
|To some extend yes, because of my family background and kind of responsibilities i have in real life (i.e.) i am single mom…|
|Have you ever met anyone from IRC? If yes, who?|
|Yes, the very 1st person i became friend with… and it turns out bad experience later… we use to talk on phone and visited few times but then he started to become cheap and i was kind of mess.. wo unreg nick sa ata tha many nicks actually… tialer , Undercover` etc etc|
|Is there any channel on IRC you want completely destroyed? If yes, why?|
|#NCA 😀 i hate it, HATE in caps….|
|Who on IRC do you like/dislike the most? One nick for each.|
|Like: Venny / Dislike: (None right now, but) Dionysus (until recently)|
|Who is the person whom you wish you had met in RL, not through IRC?|
|kity … she already left but i wish haam yahan na mele hote|
|Who is the person you think about when you are not on IRC?|
|(My Besties)… my besti circle includes diamond, kitab… now U also ( and its a sacha wala truth :p)|
I DEMAND that you kick Diamond & Kitab out! I dont like to share, KEK!
|What’s your worst memory from IRC?|
|Worst was dionysus, losing his image from being gentleman to cheapster; (especially) when he joined Undernet and started defaming me there along with Sen… i ended up leaving Undernet|
I have a dream.. that all of my friend learn to co-exist one day :S
|What is the hottest (Most Catchy) nick you find on IRC? What is the least attractive nick?|
|Hottest (for me), serf nick ke haad taak ok, is Aly / Least Attractive at least in mind tu yaad ee nai rehte; but these ‘true-friend’ kind of nicks are soOo fake.|
LOL, true-friend, Silent-whispers.. hateful-love.. constipated-diarrhea .. feces-pancakes.. gobar-kabab… i mean CMON PEOPLE!! :S
|What was the weirdest conversation you have overheard on IRC?|
|#Pakistan channel ke kuch ops ke LOL, but on undernet; they treat everyone else like class prep kids 😡 those are actually the rules of that channel that they keep on saying “ka jo baat nahi kare ga del kar dia jae ga” wagera wagera|
That’s the third time #Pakistan has popped up in 4 interview, and its mentioned in many of other unpublished ones as well. What are you peeps smoking over there at #Pakistan?? O_oP.S. I just discovered I am “preemptively’ akicked in #Pakistan. Someone tell those pussies to grow a pair please, lol!
|After 10 years, when/if you are gone from IRC, what you will be most nostalgic about?|
|IRC itself … its kind of an addiction … and fortunately i have friends from sooo long… Diamond, Kitab, Venny, Rabia , Freak|
Freak? FREAK, of all people?! Dukh howa!Freak is an idiot!
|What is the most interesting activity imaginable on IRC?|
|They change actually, aik time par it was radio … phir aik wakat tha we use to play games… they evolve!|
Whats all the fuss about Radio? I guess we’ll have to do some activity with Radio after these interviews are over!Take mental note Beparwah!
|What was the most uncomfortable thing you’ve had to do out of politeness on IRC?|
|khamosh ho jana … i avoid fights|
Your silence can be nerve-wrecking… Never do that to me again!! :@
|If you go back in past, which one thing you would like to change in your IRC history?|
|I definitely WONT cry.. (which) i used to do|
Yea, you wont! Not on my watch!
|First think of a product. Which person on IRC can you associate with it the most?|
|A Boat. And Venny, Kitab, Diamond, U , Rapt, Beparwah , Freak… |
i like to be with them on MY BOAT .
Boat dub jaani jay! :S
|Name one of your enemies on IRC which you would rather wish to be friends with?|
|Abb tu koi nahi … kuch time pehle tha koi 😡 –> (Dauntless)|
“Judge me by the enemies I have made”, Roosevelt.
Its an honor, to have been consider your enemies, my lady!
Bigger laurel, is to have you as a dear friend ^_^
|Name your IRC crush, if any?|
|Jack (The IRCop, former) / abb koi nahi|
|Describe me in one word?|
A part of me praying for a more ‘scandalous’ word! :[
|Describe Dionysus in one word?|
|Akalmand … wese Dheet also suits him|
I KNOW, RIGHT! 😀
|Describe Beparwah in one word? (Apart from Mohtram O_o)|
|If you are asked to suggest a nick name for IRC, what will it be?|
“Bright kerain issay” :@
|Tell one of your darkest fantasies?|
|I sometimes feel like going to a club and dancing (my ass off)|
[Toned down version, LOL]
|At what age did you had your first crush? What did you like in him/her?|
|ohh damn… I was in university and (there was a guy who) was my professor :S … damn intelligent, funny and lively! … I was fine-arts student and he had magic with what he painted.|
Well thats one of the reason I plan to switch to academia when I turn 40, kek!
|Most embarrassing moments in RL?|
|none… not that i can recall … me shuru sa kafi careful rahe hon|
|What do you notice in a guy/girl at first sight?|
|(I notice that) how respectful they are and honest (honest as in jhoot tu nahi bolte)|
Its an instant turn-off for me, jhoot even in mazak, jo app kabhe clear na karoo samne wale ko!
So you put everyone you meet through a lie-detector test or what? O_o
|Who is the person on IRC which you try to avoid being around wherever you see him/her?|
|Dionysus , Sen like few moths ago.. (but) abbb nai. When i was ill , i decided to let go all anger behind. (Now) I want everyone around me be friends with eachother, no fight no bad feelings etc|
|Confession time! Say something (Good or bad) which you always wanted to tell someone but couldn’t for various reasons! OR Just make a random confession.|
|Confession is I cannot like anyone more than Venny on irc.. she always stand beside me like a true friend, I think 6 or 7 years she is always like a best friend and sister to me … and open confession: Rapt is cute :*|
Oh boy… I’ll just have to brainwash her against Rapt! :S
|Bonus: Dedicate some words for any one of our mutual friends|
She is very brave girl… Her attitude towards life gives motivation to me
Welcome to the mile-high club of people fooled by SoniZz’ ruse, LMAO!Kidding, SoniZz is love! ^_^
|Bonus: Say a few words for Dauntless, Good & Bad!|
|(Your) good thing is , I never felt bored when talking to u, may be because u have lots of variety within You|
Bad thing: You tease people too much.
LOL… Guilty as charged, bro! 😛
A few endorsements from friend (updated):
- Diamond: Nazu is a sweetheart ❤ fun to hangout with and someone I’d like to meet for real
- Kitab: Mysterious
- Beparwah: Not everyday you meet a lady like her, Sometimes crazy, Sometimes weird, Always Sweet, Always adorable, the little child in her makes you go gaga every time. I guess your name is Google. Because you have everything that I am searching for 😀
- SoniZz: I only have one word for Nazia: saggi behan ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love her to bits. I truly wish her all the happiness she can get
- Exquisite: Nazia is a lively girl with a very beautiful heart. She has good sense of humor ☺️ bus moody bohat he kabhi kabhi sarriyal ho jati ?
- Maheen: After reading Nazia’s interview, I’m inspired by her bravery